Essential Zen

what a night! Yesterday I was introduced to Ho'onoponopono...I was fascinated as my meditations and intuitions had been taking me in that direction lately. I read everything I could find on it online...I was up until almost midnight fascinated, so as I got tired I decided to give it a try as I went to sleep. Meditation is the best for me right before sleep, I can set up an issue/problem and solve it while I sleep...so I lay down and began praying for divine information to heal the first thing that popped into my head. Some background: Ho'onoponopono the way I understand it is very easy...everything that is an issue in your life, you have 100% responsibility for, as you create your world and everything in it. The way to heal your life and your self is to take responsibility, ask for divine knowlege how to heal, apologize, and ask forgiveness. So I am taking to God as I understand God to be asking for divine knowlege and thats when it happened...the weirdest thing and most interesting thing ever. As I was talking to my vision of what God is...God looked at me and said "Donna, this is what you need to know" then...Turned into me. HOLY SHITBALLS! For some reason it startled the SHIT out of me, I couldnt talk to me, I got all flustered, it was like I was in the presence of a complete stranger. I (yes me) had no idea what to say to myself...so many many things ran through my head but I didnt want to talk to me...and it wasnt just a vision, it was ME...I have never talked to me before. Strangely I felt, Suspicious, Anger, Hatred, then I started to feel demanding, still angry (seems to be a thread) and some other things I cant quite place. The point I guess is that I need to talk to myself and get to know me.

I've tried this. Was very powerful and emotional for me.