A little Zen

[Affinity]

Be your self.

[Affinity]

Everything I know is wrong.

[Gonzo]

Wrong? Right? Compared to what, by whom?

[Affinity]

Everything I know is wrong:
Exactly! A remainder that clarity is an enemy. Inactivity a blight.

I'm striving the interminable.

[Gonzo]

I'm having a beer.

[Affinity]

Is there vitality in the doing? Is it meaningful, a purposeful existence?

[Gonzo]

Is there vitality in the doing? Is it meaningful, a purposeful existence?

Meaningful? Purposeful? It's what I'm doing. Sometimes there's vitality, sometimes it's done almost unconsciously out of habit. It's merely an action not requiring evaluation, little different than fetching firewood and carrying water.

[Affinity]

I am care-free for the most part, but there are times when I realize that I've missed something. Something of importance which typically results in unfavorable consequences. The care-free seems to come about due to the skill involved in not missing anything. So when something is missed my care-free shifts into desperation to ensure that what was missed is not missed again. Essentially the identification of patterns. Not to value the comfortable state over the un-comfortableness of missing something important… Skill can develop via the challenges in facing the consequences. When you become aware, you have the potential to respond rather than habitually react. Not missing anything is simply being mindful in each moment, responding genuinely and spontaneously to each moment. Effortlessly being yourself... Giving yourself the opportunity to be authentic rather than reacting habitually or in conflict with your integrity.

[Affinity]

So... The care-free seems to come about due to the skill involved in not missing anything. Care-free comes about when you are free from care.

When I'm being skillful with myself I am free from care. When I allow myself to miss challenges I find that I resume care until I've developed the skill not to. Accepting and being fine with what is found or with what is missed, is an option. However, working through what's missed, for me, is an element of moving further. Because what is typically missed; what is conditioned, reactionary, habitual, etc. is rarely agreeable to the momentum involved.